SOME MAY THINK THIS A GAME ... BUT NEVERTHELESS WHEN YOUR UNDER MY INFLUENCE...YOUR THINKING PROCESS  IS NOT THE SAME...I CONTROL YOUR INTERNAL, EXTERNAL, AND MENTAL INTELLECT...I MAKE YOU NEGLECT YOUR RATIONAL MINDSET...AS YOU INGEST ME AT FIRST JUST FOR FUN...BUT AS TIME PROGRESS...OUR FRIENDSHIP HAS BECOME A STAINED AND STRESSFUL ONE... . BUT IT'S TO LATE...BECAUSE  I HAVE OVERWHELMED YOUR SOUL..WHAT I NEEDED TO DO TO YOU ... I HAVE ALREADY DONE ...AND NOW MY FUN HAS JUST BEGUN...SO NOW THAT SMILE THAT I GAVE YOU ...WHEN YOU FIRST CAME AROUND...HAS QUICKLY BEEN TURNED UPSIDE DOWN INTO A FROWN...YOU SEE YOUR TRYING TO ELIMINATE THE INFECTIONS OF ME FROM YOU... BUT THE HALLUCINATIONS THAT I PROVIDE ARE INVADING YOUR  BRAINWAVES...AWWWW DON'T CRY JUST YET...LOOK AT YOU... PLEADING FOR SANITY WITH YOUR EYES...YOUR THROAT IS SO RAW FROM REGURGITATION THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN SPEAK...FEAR AND PAIN IS THE ONLY SENSES I ALLOW  YOU TO RECOGNIZE...YOU R NOW MY CONCUBINE...DESPERATE FOR DEATH TO FALL UPON YOU...INCREASINGLY WANTING RELEASE FROM THIS IMMEDIATE REALITY...PRAYERS ARE JUMPING OUT FROM YOUR HEART ...(WELL THAT'S A GOOD START) METAMORPHIC, SEDIMENTARY AND IGNEOUS  ARE TYPES OF STONES...WHICH YOU R MADE OF NONE...  YOU HAVE NO SELF RESPECT OR NO BACKBONE ...YOUR ARE NOW ADDICTED  AND IT'S NO DREAM ....NOW AND HOW IS HERE FOR YOU TO GET CLEAN..(YADA YADA YADA) YOU DECLARED THAT YOU WOULD STOP USING ...TO YOUR OWN DEAF EARS...I AM YOUR DEMON...I'M SHOWING MY FACE...AND YOU ARE NOT PREPARED FOR A NO HOLDS BARRED FIGHT...THINKING THAT YOU CAN HANDLE IT... IS YOUR FIRST MISTAKE...YOUR DRUG ABUSE OF ME HAS MADE YOUR HUMANITY INVISIBLE...(WAIT...STOP...ENOUGH IS ENOUGH) I'M TIRED OF LISTENING TO THE GLOATING OF YOUR WORDS AND THE SARCASM IN YOUR VOICE... ABOUT HOW YOU THE CHEMICAL PLUS DEPENDENCEY THAT EQUALS THE MONSTER THAT ENGULFED ME ENTIRELY...AND YOUR RIGHT ...YOUR CLUTCHES  ARE STRONG... BUT HOLD ON...MY FAITH WAS  WEAK AND MY COURAGE WAS GONE...BUT AS I REACH OUT AND TOUCH  WHO I HAD LEFT FOR SO LONG...(MY GOD)...HE WILL CLEANSE THE ALTERATIONS YOU HAVE MADE IN ME HE WILL REVIVE MY SPIRIT THAT HAS BEEN HIDDEN ...UNDER ALL OF YOUR DARKNESS ... I AM SURRENDERING  UNTO  HIM ...FOR HE  IS  A POWER THAT IS GREATER THAN MYSELF ...THIS IS NOT A CHOICE ANYMORE...I KNOW IT'S MANDATORY...IF I WANNA BE ALIVE TO TELL MY STORY...HUNGER PAINS ARE DEMANDING COMMANDS...WHEN FOOD IS NOT THE RELIEVING RESULT....AS MY HEALTH IS HANGING ON WITH MY EVERY BREATH...LIFE HAS TO BE A NECESSITY...OF BELIEVING THAT I CAN BEAT THIS AND BE BLESSED....NO MORE SICK  WITH THE AFFLICTION OF A CERTAIN SUFFERING ...THE SURVIVAL RATE FROM THIS PARTICULAR PREPACKAGED DEATH IS NOT AT A RISE...PARTICIPATION IN MY OWN FIGHT IS AN INTENSIVE CARE CATEGORY...I WILL EMBRACE  BACK THE SELF LOVE THAT YOUR INCISIONS LET SEEP OUT OF ME...THIS IS A MENTAL AND PHYSICAL HELL...  BUT MY GOD WILL FREE MY EXISTENCE...CHALLENGES ARE THE BASE OF WHAT MAKES THE PIECES OF LIFE'S  PUZZLES  REALIGNED...I WILL REATTACH MY PERSONALITY AND RETURN IT TO IT'S PROPER PLACE...THIS OUTER BODY EXPERIENCE IS BEING WITNESSED BY TRAPPED AND FREED SOULS... I WILL STAND AS A MONUMENT AND APPRECIATE THE GIFT OF LIVING...I WILL STOP SLAVE DRIVING IN THE DEVILS PLAYHOUSE...COMMITTING TO THE REFUSAL OF RELAPSE IS ONE TOOL THAT I WILL NEED TO STRENGTHEN ...AS I CONTINUOUSLY CAST YOU OUT...YOU ARE LIKE CHUCKY (MY FRIEND TILL MY END) A HORRORIFIC SPIRIT... AS GENERATIONS EVOLVE WE ARE STILL REPETITIVE WITH NEGATIVE HABITS...WE SEE THE DAMAGE THAT DRUG ABUSE HAS FALLEN UPON OTHERS ...BUT WE DON'T REALLY LOOK...SOMETIMES BEING THE OUTSIDER IS THE BEST WAY OF LIFE... ALTHOUGH THE NARROW MINDED THINKING... MAKES US FEEL LIKE DIFFERENT IS EQUAL TO THE PLAGUE...CONCENTRATE ON THE FATE OF YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CAN RELEASE A MESSAGE FOR OTHERS...COMPLICATED DETAIL DUTY IS YOURS FIRST TO ACCOMPLISH...YOU CAN NOT TAKE LEAD IN A BATTLE...UNLESS YOU HAVE HAD COMBAT TRAINING...AND AS ALL THE SMOKE CLEARS ....I FEEL AS THOUGH I HAVE MY DEMON NOT LAID TO REST BUT SOMEWHAT SUPPRESSED........ I KNOW THAT THIS IS NOT A TEST...TO SEE IF I AM THE BEST OF THE BEST ....... BUT FIRST I MUST ADMIT AND BE UPFRONT WITH MYSELF...AND SLOWLY THE SHACKLES WILL BE REMOVED....NOW MY SKY HAS GONE FROM BLACK...BACK TO IT'S ORIGINAL BLUE...JUST AS THE WATER THAT I  NOW PRESENTLY USE...MY MEALS ARE NO LONGER FROM THE GARBAGE ...OR CONSIST OF MOLDED BREAD AND THROWN AWAY BUTTER ...I NO LONGER SLEEP IN A CARDBOARD BOX ...OR WAKE UP SMELLING OF THIS TERRIBLE STENCH FROM LYING IN THE GUTTER...I NOW REMEMBER WHAT IT IS TO INHALE THE SWEET SCENT OF FLOWERS...AND LISTEN TO THE BIRDS...I ACTUALLY  ENJOY THE SHADE FROM THE TREES....NOW I APPRECIATE MOTHER NATURES GIFTS THAT I TEMPORARILY LEFT BEHIND ....MY LIFE WAS ALWAYS THERE ...IT'S JUST THAT THE DISEASE OF ADDICTION WAS THAT BEAST THAT CAPTIVATED MY ESSENCE ....AND HE DOESN'T LIKE TO SHARE...I SMILE TODAY AND ALWAYS CARE FOR THE NEXT ONE...BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN A PRISONER OF WAR...AND THAT SHIT IS FAR FROM BEING HOME...WELL WELL WELL...DO TELL SO YOU ARE ONE OF THE VERY FEW FORTUNATE ONES...WHO HAVE OBTAINED THEIR FREEDOM AGAIN...FROM BEING A VICTIM OF MY DOMAIN...NICELY DONE...ANYWAY I'M GLAD TO HAVE MET YOU...AND BY THE WAY...LET'S NOT FORGET TO GIVE THE LISTENERS MY NAME...

THEY CALL ME....COCAINE

BY POETESS.SOUL

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AS THE RUMBLE SOUNDS START TO STIR UP IN YOUR MIND

(A STORM IS COMING)

WHEN THE CONJUNCTION OF LETTERS BEGIN TO COMBINE...

INTO A HURRICANE OF PHRASES ...

THAT ILLUMINATES LIKE THE WIND FROM A TORNADO...

BECAUSE YOU  ARE ABOUT TO START ...

SPILLING INK AND BLEEDING ...

WITH  THE PASSION OF A BLAZING FIRE...

FROM YOUR SOUL...

BEYOND THE HOUSING OF YOUR HEART...

THE TELEPATHIC VISIONS THAT 

YOU  RELEASE THROUGH YOUR PIECES....

IS THE BLINDING EMOTIONS...

THAT YOU KEEP SURPRESSED ...BUT YOU STILL EXPERIENCE...

THE  FEELING OF A CONSTRUCTED FOUNDATION...

OF YOUR LIFE'S TRUTHS  APPEARS IN  ANOTHER'S INTERNAL...

FROM THE WORDS YOU SPYT ....

TOUCHING OTHERS PAST THE VISUAL DEEPNESS....

IS SO CLOSE THAT THEY SHED PAIN AND JOY ...

THROUGH THEIR EYES SIMULTANEOUSLY WITH THEIR TEARS...

AS YOU REACH THE HELL THAT DWELLS WITHIN THEM...

YOU RELEASE THEIR BURDEN OF DARKNESS ...

THAT ALLOWS  ALL TO FEEL THAT RELIEF ...

OF THE UNTOLD PART OF THEM AND YOU...

PRAISE THE GIFT THAT LEVITATES YOU ...

EVERY TIME YOU SHARE...

COMBINE YOUR MIND WITH TOTAL STRANGERS...

CONFIDENTLY PASSING THE FEVER OF ENLIGHTENMENT...

DEDICATING THE MESSAGE TO ALL...

PROCEED TO DEMOLISH ALL SAFETY NETS THAT CLOUDS CLARITY...

TAKE THE FEAR OF REALITY AND NURTURE SOCIETY...

REPLACE THE NIGHT WITH THE WISDOM OF LIGHT...

RESTORE TODAY INTO PURE DETAILS OF TOMORROW...

MAGNIFY THE STARS  INTO GLEAMS  OF  JOURNEYS TO COME...

PREPARE THE MOON  TO BECOME A NON COMPLACENT PLANET...

AS THE  SUN WILL REMAIN BRIGHT AS EVER...

THIS A FASHION OF EXQUISITE VOLUME...

FOR ALL DEAF EARS...THROW (I NEED A WITNESS ) DAGGERS ...

AT THE FAITHFUL AND THE UNFAITHFUL...

EVERY BEING IS TAINTED  WITH THE INFECTION ...

(YOU ARE DECEIVED BY WHAT YOU ARE NOT WILLING TO SEE)

THAT INVISIBLY SATURATES  THE  AIR OF LIFE...

THE TRUTHS SURROUNDS POPULATIONS EVERYWHERE...

WE LIKE TO DENY WHAT IS REALLY  REAL...

BECAUSE ITS AN UGLY SIGHT

BY POETESS SOUL

© copyright Fri Sep 17 19:57:24 UTC 2010 - All Rights Reserved

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NOT SURE OF WHAT YOU WANT TO DO WITH YOU...YOUR FEELING BRAND NEW...LIKE A PERSONALITY REJECT...THAT HAS EJECTED MY BIOLOGICAL GENES FROM WHAT COMPLETES ME...WRECKED ...THE WORD THAT BEST DESCRIBES HOW I FEEL ON THE INSIDE...I HAVE BEEN STRIPPED OF MY SHELTER...WHICH IS PROVIDED BY GOD...DOES THAT MAKE ME ODD? NOT AT ALL...DUE TO THE FACT THAT WE ALL HAVE ONE...LOVE THE SKIN THAT YOUR IN...WE ALL SISTAHS AND BROTHAS ....NO MATTER WHAT COLOR... WE HAVE TO STOP ACTING LIKE THE MAD HATTER...FAKE AND CONFUSING ...NOT THE LEAST BIT AMUSING...YOU SEEM TO NOT GET IT..SMACKING YOU WITH A REALITY CHECK...THERE IS NO ROOM TO FAIL...THIS IS YOUR POETRY-GRAM IN AN E-MAIL...DEAR UNFOUNDED MEMBERS OF SOCIETY...YOUR UNAWARNESS IS LIKE SPAM ...THAT HAS TO BE DELETED...REPLACED WITH AN OVERWRITE FILE TITLED(UPDATED KNOWLEDGE) DETAILS INCLUDE VITAL INFORMATION ON THE PAST,PRESENT, AND THE FUTURE...THERE IS A NEED FOR SOCIETY TO BE NURTURED...WITH THE ROOTS OF REALITY TO TASTE THE FRUITS OF CLARITY...EACH ONE TEACH ONE...THAT IS HOW IT'S DONE...NUMBERS AND UNITY...THAT IS WHAT COMPLETES A TRUE COMMUNITY...CREATING A WEAPON FROM EDUCATION...A HEALTHY MIND WON'T LET NONE OF HIS MEMBERS BE LEFT BEHIND...PRIORITIZED ORDER MUST BE MAINTAINED...SEE IT AMAZES ME HOW SELF SELECTED PERSONS WON'T LISTEN WILLINGLY...WHEN HISTORY IS SPEAKING LOUD AND CLEARLY...MAKE NO MISTAKE YOU ARE AFFECTED BY RIVALS OF TIME ALSO...AND AT THE SAME TIME...YOU ARE NEGLECTING YOURSELF BY YOURSELF...DENIAL IS A DECEITFUL EMOTION...AND CHANGE PROVIDES THE BACKBONE FOR ACCEPTANCE...WE ARE GONNA BECOME STRONG ...SO THE LEGEND CAN LIVE ON AND ON...RESPECT AND NEGLECT ARE NOT EVEN 5 PERCENT OF THIS EQUATION...THAT INTERPRETS RIGHTS AND WRONGS...JUST BECAUSE WE DISAGREE...DOESN'T MEAN THAT WE DON'T HAVE AN OPINION ...DECISIONS ARE TAKING PLACE CONTINUALLY...WE WILL PARTICIPATE...REVISE UNCERTAIN PERSPECTIVES AND INTERGRATE...ONE HAND WASHES THE OTHER IS JUST A CLICHE IF YOU DON'T EXECUTE WHAT IT MEANS...DREAMS ARE NOT IMPOSSIBLE...ALTHOUGH LIFE IS MIXED... WITH FAILING CONTENGINCIES,LEADER INCONSISTENCIES,AND DECISIVE IRRATIONALITIES...THAT HAS AND IS PRESENTLY INFECTING THE ACCOMPLISHMENTS PROCESS...TO RESTORE PROPER LAW AND ORDER...WE WILL RETRIEVE THE ARCHIVE RECORDS...OF OUR ANCESTORS...THEN EDUCATE OURSELVES WITH THEIR LIVES HISTORY...ALLOWING US TO PROJECT THE STRENGTH OF OUR POWERFUL MINDSET ADVERSARY

BY POETESS.SOUL

© copyright Sun Aug 22 02:21:53 UTC 2010 - All Rights Reserved



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SURRENDERING UNTO A BATTLE THAT YOU CANNOT SEE... FEELING THE AFTERMATH OF A DISASTER INDIRECTLY...APPROACHING YOU REPEATEDLY...TO BE A REFERENCE OF REWIND ALL THE TIME...NEVER THE LESS...YOU MUST STILL REMAIN POSITIVE...GRIP ...DON'T SLIP ...OFF OF THE MOUNTAIN OF I'M GOING DOWN....AS THE FALL WILL BE ENDLESS...THE RECESSION IS NO NEW SUFFER...PRESIDENTS, POLITICS, LAWS, MAYORS, AND GOVERNORS...ALL CHANGE THEIR COSTUMES OVER THE YEARS ...DUE TO THERE IS NO CONSISTENT HELP FOR THE SOCIETY... WE ARE STILL STRUGGLING TO KEEP OUR HEAD ABOVE WATER...Y...BECAUSE OF THE CONTAMINATION OF SELFISHNESS...IT' S SPREADING ALL OVER OUR LEADERS ...OUR PEOPLE...AND INTO THE STREETS...IT'S LIKE TRYING TO BEAT THE HEAT...BUT YOU CAN'T ...BECAUSE LIKE THE SUN ...IT'S BURNING INTO YOUR CHARACTERISTIC PORES AND CLONING YOUR SOUL...IT'S THE COLLECTING OF PERSONALITY DATA...CONFUSING THE THOUGHT PROCESS...WHAT YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE THINKING...YOU WERE CRAMMING...EYES ARE RAPIDLY BLINKING...EQUAL TO THE SPEED OF LIGHT...THEN THERE'S THE CLICHE THAT PROVIDES NO HOPE...ONLY THE STRONG SURVIVE...IMPLANTED IN THE WEAKEST LIFES BRAIN...CRYING OUT LOUD GOES MUCH FURTHER THAN SILENCE...GUIDANCE NEEDS TO BE MORE FOCUSED UPON...SO YOU CAN X-RAY THE EXAMPLE...YOUR BOUNDARIES HAVE TO BE STABLE ...ALL 24 HOURS IN A DAY...ALL 365 DAYS IN A YEAR ....JUST FOR CLEARANCE OF YOUR DIGNITY...THAT YOU WANT OTHERS TO PERCEIVE FROM YOU...DON'T PITY THE SO CALLED FOOL ....JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN UNAWARENESS...SHAKE THAT HAND OF KNOWLEDGE...LEARN FROM THAT PARTICULAR WOMAN, CHILD , OR MAN...STANDING STRAIGHT...DOESN'T ALWAYS MEAN YOUR LEVELED...TWISTED...DOESN'T ALWAYS MEANS YOUR INSANE...THOSE ARE PLUSES AND NEGATIVES...THAT ARE DIVIDED BY A FRACTION OF EVERY HUMAN BEING...WHICH EQUALS DIFFERENCES...EVERYBODY MUST EAT AND BE FULL OF A LEARNING BASE CHROMOSOME...IN ORDER TO GO PRO...YOU MUST BE IN THE KNOW...SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO CRY...Y TO SAY GOODBYE...SO THAT YOU CAN CONCENTRATE ON AIM...TO FULFILL YOUR COMPLETION OF CHANGE...PROGRESS IS A WEAPON THAT INCLUDES MANY TOOLS...TO GET FIXED, MIXED AND SOLD...WITH CLASSIFICATION...PERSISTENT DEDICATION OF YOU ...AND WHAT YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH...TO BECOME KING OR QUEEN ...OF THE WORLD THAT YOU CREATED WITHIN...DIFFICULTIES COME WHETHER IT'S A BEGINNING OR AN END...LIFE HAS A 100 PERCENT COMPLEX OF SINNERS...AS LONG AS YOU HAVE BREATH... INSTILLED THROUGH OUT YOUR EXISTENCE...YOU HAVE THE CHANCE TO BE A WITNESS ...AND NOT BE PASSED OVER AS THE IGNORANT

BY POETESS SOUL

© copyright Sun Aug 15 20:35:01 UTC 2010 - All Rights Reserved



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MY ABANDONMENT IS LIKE MY DATE OF BIRTH...AS IF I WASN'T BORN OF THIS EARTH...MY HEAD HAS A FACE...BUT NO EXPRESSION..WHEN YOU SEE ME...I'M IN A FROZEN STATE OF DEPRESSION...MY EYES HAVE NO PUPILS...THEY ARE SO BLANK...YOU CAN'T EVEN SEE ANY OF MY SCRUPLES...THE HEART THAT BEATS WITHIN ME...IS SOLID COLD...WITHOUT THE FLOW OF LOVE...AND THE PUMPING OF NO HUMAN BLOOD...MY LIMBS ARE LIKE DRIED STEMS...THAT ARE ATTACHED TO ROOTED DEAD GRASS...I CAN'T DECIPHER IF I WAS EXISTING BY A SPIRITUAL CURSE...OR IF I WAS JUST HIGH...ON ONE OF MY TRIPS...LIKE A STUPID ASS...I BELIEVE THAT I AM OF SOME SUBSTANCE BY DEFINITION...BUT I AM NOT DEFINED...I GUESS THE HUMAN BEING IN ME HAS BEEN ERASED...LIKE A BAD MISTAKE...WITHOUT A TRACE...AND EVERY FRIEND THAT I THOUGHT I HAD WAS A FAKE...AS YOU CAN SEE MY MY FATHER AND MY MOTHER HAD NO POSITIVITY TO TEACH ME...DURING BREAKFAST AND DINNER...IT WAS ALWAYS SILENT...JUST LIKE A BLIND BOY ON A ONE PERSON FAMILY DIET...I AM NEITHER WEAK OR STRONG...NON ACCEPTANCE OF RIGHT AND WRONG...MY DARKNESS IS COMBINED...REWIND....MY DARKNESS IS COMBINED...LIKE WATER AND DIRT...I AM POWERLESS TO FEEL THE WILL TO CONVERT...I'M SUPPOSE TO GRACEFULLY GROW OLD ...MOAN AND GROAN...BUT THE INSIDE OF ME IS DETERIORATING...AS IF I WAS A BOTTOMLESS PIT...WHERE OTHERS LOOK OVER INTO AND SPIT...I CAN'T SMILE...I HAVE NO EGO..MY PRIDE HAS NEVER SURFACED FOR ME TO HIDE...THIS LIVING TISSUE THAT COVERS MY SKELETAL STRUCTURE...IS BOILING WITH NON EXISTENCE THAT IS ABOUT TO ERUPT FOR SURE...YOU KNOW EVEN IF I WAS ACCUSED OF A CRIME ONE FUCKING TIME....I WOULD THEN CRY... BECAUSE I CAN FINALLY STRIVE TO OVERTURN THE NEGATIVITY THAT I WAS IN..... I CAN REVIVE, START TO LIVE... IN A BEGINNING.... INSTEAD OF AN END... PLAIN AND FADED WITH NO IDEAS... I AM LIFE WITHOUT A LIFE... A SACRIFICIAL LAMB... I AM ....DAMN... I DON'T EVEN HAVE A RIGHT HAND MAN... THERE I SO MUCH DESPAIR... SHIT I JUST WANT THE FEELING TO SHARE WITH ANOTHER.. CARE FOR ANOTHER.... RECEIVING THE PARENTAL LOVE... FROM MY FATHER ANDY MY MOTHER.... I WANT THE MEMORIES OF A HEALTHY CHILDHOOD.... I WANT A FRIEND THAT WILL STICK WITH ME TILL THE END... HOW CAN I RESURRECT... I AM NOT MADE OF STONE... THAT'S WELL KNOWN.... BUT FOR SOME REASON I'M STILL ALONE... I'M NOT CRAZY OR FOUL..... BUT I ALWAYS HEAR A WHISPERING VOICE CALLING ME THE SOULLESS CHILD.... OH MY GOD... MY SUBCONSCIOUS JUST SHOWED ME SOMETHING DEEP... ENOUGH TO AWAKEN ME OUT OF MY SLEEP... I WAS FAST PATTING MY HEAD,EYES,ARMS,LEGS, AND HAIR .... HELL I WAS CHECKING MYSELF EVERYWHERE... WOW THANK GOD THAT WAS A DREAM... I DON'T WANT ANY OF THOSE THINGS TO HAPPEN TO ME.... I MUST GET WITH MY GOD AND PRAY.. I AM GOING TO REARRANGE THIS REALITY CHECK ... PLEASE FATHER FORGIVE ME FOR I HAVE SINNED.... I HAVE NOT BEEN A RESPECTFUL YOUNG BOY... I VOW TO LEARN HOW TO BE HUMBLE... AND DON'T CRUMBLE... MATURE INTO A MAN... AND STAND STRAIGHT DON'T HESITATE... THIS CHANGE IS A GAIN THAT HOPE IS STILL ALIVE AND ACCOMPLISHMENTS ARE NOT IMPOSSIBLE... I AM TO WITNESS THAT LIVING IS SURVIVING WITH THE STRUGGLES FROM TIME TO TIME... THIS PARTICULAR STRUGGLE JUST HAPPENS TO BE MINE ... AMEN

BY POETESS.SOUL

© copyright Thu Jul 29 03:55:09 UTC 2010 - All Rights Reserved

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I AM KNOWN TO THE WORLD BY MANY DIFFERENT FACES...MY IDENTITY STAYS HIDDEN...UNTIL MY TRUE FORM HAS ARISEN...I HAVE NO SHAME...I PLAY NO GAMES...I TAKE MOST OF MY VICTIMS LIVES THAT I CLAIM...I AM A BACTERIAL DISASTER...I GO BY THE NAME OF CANCER...OK LET'S LOOK AT ME IN DETAIL...BECAUSE I HAVE A HELL OF A STORY TO TELL...ABOUT THE MONSTER THAT I AM...AND THE WAY THAT I DWELL...I AM A DISEASE THAT WILL KNOCK YOU ON YOUR KNEES...MAKE YOU RESPECT MY PAIN...I WILL COMPLETELY DRAIN YOUR SOUL FROM YOUR FEET TO YOUR BRAIN...I AM THE POTENT INGREDIENT OF A PSYCHOLOGICAL STRAIN...I LEAVE NO PARTS OF YOUR BODY UNSTAINED...AS I REMAIN...I BREED INFECTIOUS TUMORS INSIDE YOUR BIOLOGICAL HUMAN CAVITY...JUST BECAUSE I LAY DORMANT...REGULAR TESTING SOMETIMES CAN'T EVEN DIAGNOSIS ME...THIS FIRST INTRODUCTION OF ME IS CALLED CONTAMINATION...I SHARE NO CARE...I SHOW NO RELIEF FROM ME ...FOR YOU OR YOUR FAMILY...THIS IS WHEN YOU START TO SEE HOW I TREAT...ANY HUMAN ANATOMY...THIS PART OF ME IS CALLED AGONY...I MAKE YOUR LIFE A LIVING HELL...AS MY NEED TO FEED INCREASES...I START TO MAKE YOUR BODY SWELL,SMELL... AND GUESS WHAT!!! THE MAJORITY OF MY VICTIMS DON'T EVEN GET WELL....I MAKE YOU FORGET EVERY MEMORY THAT YOU HAD TO TELL...YOU KNOW WHY?...BECAUSE THAT'S MY CREATION OF ME IN YOUR HEAD...TAKING OVER YOUR NEUROLOGICAL IDENTITY...WITH A PURPOSE TO KEEP YOU IN MISERY...MAKING YOUR WORST NIGHTMARES A REALITY...I LIVE INSIDE OF YOU ENTIRELY...
UNTIL YOU NO LONGER BREATHE...THIS PART OF ME IS CALLED CONSUMPTION...OF THE HUMAN BEING THAT YOU USE TO BE...AS I PROGRESS WITH MY DEADLINESS...YOU BECOME AN EMPTY SHELL...WITH NO LIVING FUNCTIONS...YOU WILL BE IN MY MUMMIFIED STATE...WAITING FOR ME TO PROCEED AND EXTERMINATE...AS MY EVIL DEED HAS COME TO AN END...HERE IT IS THAT DEATH
IS YOUR ONLY COMFORT FRIEND...PRESENTLY WHAT WAS INSTILLED IN YOU OF YOUR FAMILY...IS THE LIFE THAT MADE YOU HAPPY...THIS PART OF ME IS CALLED REMEMBRANCE ...WHERE I MADE YOUR EXISTENCE JUST MEMORIES

MAGNIFY YOUR LIFE AND ALWAYS CHECK YOURSELF...DO NOT NEGLECT YOURSELF....YOU HAVE TO BE THE ONE TO PROTECT YOURSELF...BY KEEPING UP ON YOUR HEALTH

WRITTEN AND COPYRIGHTED 2010
BY POETESS.SOUL

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THE REAL PAIN HURTS WHEN LIFE TAPS YOU ON THE BACK...WE ALL REFUSE TO LOOK AT...
SUFFERING IS A PART OF LIVING...NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU HAVE ALREADY GIVEN...
IT'S UNAVOIDABLE...NOT UNDERSTANDABLE...I CAN'T DISSECT IT...I HAVE TO HOLD MY... GROUND AND ACCEPT IT...THERE ARE COMPLICATIONS, IRRITATIONS, AND SOME VERY SAD SITUATIONS...THAT MAKE ME SIGH, CRY, AND EVEN ASK WHY? BECAUSE IT'S MY TURN FOR REAL LIFE TO BURN...I CAN'T SAY NO...WHAT AM I GOING TO DO...WHERE AM I GOING TO GO...I DON'T KNOW...HAVEN'T GOT A CLUE...LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS FAIR...AND WE ALL CAN'T BE SPARED...YEAH I DO SHED TEARS... FOR THE FEARS I HAVE TO FACE...MY PLACE IN SOCIETY IS NOT DESIGNATED...THIS IS NO MOVIE TO BE RATED...AND SO WHAT!I FEEL VIOLATED...I AM NOT SPECIAL...I'M NOT EXCLUDED...BUT I'M INCLUDED WITH THE REST OF US...NO ONE TO TRUST...MY HONESTY IS MEANINGLESS...I HAVE TO CONSIDER MYSELF BLESSED...FOR WHAT I GOT...HELL NO!...THIS SHIT WON'T STOP...HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF ALWAYS...THERE IS NO REACHING THE TOP...WHEN OBSTACLES ARE CONSTANTLY TRYING TO KEEP ME BLOCKED...LIFE DOESN'T CARE IF MY STRIDE IS PERFECTED...I STILL WOULDN'T GET ELECTED...JUST BECAUSE I AM A BLACK AMERICAN I WOULD BE DETECTED...BY DIFFERENT SHADES OF RACE...LIKE A RADAR...FROM A FAR...MY OUTER SELF SAID " FUCK IT JUST GO TO THE BAR"...LIKE THAT'S GOING TO HELP ME THINK..."SELF PITY YOURSELF WITH BOOZE...HEY IT'S OK IF THAT'S WHAT YOU CHOOSE...GO AHEAD AND LIVE LIFE TO LOSE"..

MY INNER SELF SAID " LIVING LIFE IS A CHALLENGE THAT YOU MUST
HANDLE...IN THE PALM OF YOUR HAND...WHILE DESIGNATING RESPECT AND COURAGE THAT
YOU DESERVE...AS YOU PAVE PART OF YOUR FUTURE WITH BOOKS...LOOK AT WHAT IS
WRITTEN...IT'S ONLY HIDDEN IF YOU CAN'T READ...WHICH THERE IS NO NEED...DUE TO
THE TEACHING MATERIALS THAT IS AVAILABLE AND EXACT...YOU ARE IN THE NYC...THAT
IS OVERGROWN WITH ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES...THAT WILL CREATE OPPORTUNITIES...
WHICH WILL CONNECT TO FULFILLED DREAMS...AS STREAMS OF KNOWLEDGE IS WAITING
TO BE SNATCHED...AND ATTACHED...TO YOUR MIND...WHICH CAN BECOME ONE OF A
KIND...GREAT HEADS ARE HARD TO FIND...A RECEPTOR OF THOUGHT...WHERE THE
BRAIN ALLOWS ITSELF TO BE TAUGHT...AS TO WHERE CALCULATING IS A SPORT...
YOU BETTER CONTEMPLATE THIS MOVE WELL...THIS IS YOUR ENLIGHTENMENT SERIES
THAT I HAD TO TELL...DAMN!" THANK YOU TO MY INNER SELF...I LISTEN TO YOU ...MY
RATIONAL MIND...AND COMPREHEND YOUR WORDS WELL...MY MORALITY IS IMPLANTED
IN ME DEEPLY...LIKE A ROOTED TREE...I AM MY LIFE'S SURVIVAL...IT IS LIKE GOING UP
AGAINST A GANG RIVAL...THAT WILL HANG MY ASS...AND DON'T EVEN FLINCH...AND
LEAVE MY DEAD BODY TO ROT IN IT'S OWN STINKING STENCH...I MUST CLENCH THIS
INFORMATION..DISTRIBUTE IT ACROSS THE ENTIRE NATION...SO NO ONE WILL EVER FORGET...HELL!...I'M GOING TO POST THIS PIECE ON THE INTERNET...I AM DUE DEFINITE RESPONSES THEN I BET...THIS IS WHY YOU AND I JUST MET...TO MAKE SURE THAT THIS
CLARITY IS SHARED FULL CIRCLE 360 DEGREES...SO EVERYONE CAN CULTIVATE THEIR OWN ENLIGHTENMENT SERIES

WRITTEN AND COPYRIGHT 2010

BY POETESS.SOUL

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I CRY NO LONGER
WITH MY EYES...

BUT WITH MY
MIND...

FROM DEEP INSIDE
I SHARE MY EMOTIONS
ON LINES OF
PAPER...

CREATING A STEAMY
VAPOR...

WITH THE RELEASE
OF INK GRACEFULLY
SPREADING WORDS
OF TRUTHFUL INTELLECT
OF LIFE...
AS I HAVE LIVED
IT...

MY EXPERIENCES ARE
LEGIT...

WITH NO REGRETS
NOW...
BECAUSE I WAS
TAUGHT...
NEVER BOUGHT OR
SOLD...

I HAVE PROUDLY
MATURED AND
GROWN OLD...

WHILE SURVIVING
IN A 90 PERCENT
COLD WORLD...
THERE WERE TIMES
WHEN I WOULD
CURL UP IN
A FETAL BALL...

COULDN'T EVEN
CRAWL...

FEEL LIKE I'M
ON A DOWNFALL...

WANTING AND
NEEDING DESPERATELY
TO MAKE A CALL...

TO MY GOD...

SO I CAN RECALL
THE PERIODS OF '
WHEN I STOOD
TALL...

HELL YES...
I HAD
FLAWS...

BUT I ESCAPED
TO PEACE WITH
MY HONESTY
OF ME...

I TRULY
COMPREHEND
MY INTERNAL
SPIRIT...

BY SUBMITTING
EVERY PART OF
MY BEING INTO
WHAT I BELIEVE...

I HAVE ACHIEVED
A NEW LIFE...

AND THAT IS
IN RELATION
TO RECEIVE
ALL THAT IS
MEANT FOR ME
TOTALLY...

WHETHER GOOD
OR BAD...
I KNOW I
WILL EVENTUALLY
BE FREE... TO
EXIST BEYOND
THE LIVING
FLESH OF NATURE...

AS THE DEPRESSION,SUPPRESSION
AGGRESSION OR POSSESSION
ARE NO PART
OF ME ANY MORE...

NOW I CAN
EXPLORE THIS PRECIOUS
PEACEFUL AWAKENING
LIKE NEVER BEFORE...

THESE INSIGHTFUL VISIONS
OF BEAUTIFUL COSMIC
WILLOW TREES...

THE ACTUAL FRESH
SMELL OF LIGHT
SWEET POTPOURRIS...

FLUSTERED RIPENED
FRUITS FOR EVERYONE'S
FAMILIES...

WITH NO FIGHTING
AMONGST WE...

STARS SO CLOSE
YOU CAN ALMOST
TOUCH...

THE MOON
IS SO BEYOND
EXPRESSION...
HMMM...I LOVE
IT HERE SO
MUCH...

THE SUN IS
FUN...IT'S
LIKE SPRING HAS
JUST BEGUN
EVERYDAY...CAN'T
WAIT TO RUN
INTO MY LOVED
ONES...

THIS WATER IS
SO CLEAR...THAT
IT'S SHEER...
THERE IS NO FEAR
HERE...
THIS IS MY AFTERLIFE...
AND IT'S EXTRAORDINARILY
SINCERE...

FOR I WILL ALWAYS
RESPECT MY
PAST...

BECAUSE IF NOT
FOR IT I WOULDN'T
BE ABLE TO
APPRECIATE NOW
WHAT'S IN FRONT
OF ME...

SO I SHARE THIS
NEW LIFE WITH
YOU...FROM WAY
UP HIGH...NOT TO
JUST SAY
GOODBYE...

BUT TO TRY
TO MAKE YOU
REALIZE... WHY
SOME OF
THE LIVING...
WISHFULLY WANT
TO DIE

WRITTEN AND COPYRIGHT 2010

BY POETESS.SOUL

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AS OUR WORLD
PANICS...PEOPLE
RUNNING EVERY
WHICH WAY...
WITH NO PLACE
FOR ESCAPE...

NO ONE CAN
FIX THIS....OUR
PLANET WAS A
HIT NOT A MISS...

THERE IS NOTHING
TO TELL YOU...
BUT THIS... IT'S
THE REAL TRUE
SHIT....
SEE THE
STRUGGLE ISN'T
OVER YET...

IT'S ONLY JUST
BEGUN....WHO
GONNA ADMIT
IT...NO ONE

BLACK SMOKE,
DUST AND THICK
ASS FOG...ALONG
WITH DEAD TREES
AND FLOATING
BURNT LOGS...

THE OCEANS
AND RIVERS
HAVE COMBINED
AS THEY FLOW
THROUGH THE
STREETS...AS

THE WOUNDED
LYE THERE
DYEING AND
CAN'T EVEN
SPEAK...

THE PARENTLESS
CHILDREN CRYING
AND SCREAMING
NOT UNDERSTANDING...
THE MEANING FOR
THIS DISASTER...

IT'S LIKE THERE
IS NO LIFE
LEFT TO LOOK
AFTER...

THE GASES ARE
SOARING THROUGH
THE AIR...
WHO EVER
IS LEFT HAS
LOST MOST
OF THEIR
HAIR....

THE SELFISHNESS
OF WHOM HAS
ALLOWED THE
DAY OF DESTRUCTION
TO FALL UPON
OUR REALITY
TO SOON....

HAS TAKEN AWAY
THE PRECIOUSNESS
OF SEEING
THE MOON...

THE SUNRISE
IS INVISIBLE
NOW.... AND
OUR MEMORIES
ARE ALSO
BEEN DOOMED...

DUE TO OUR
GOVERNMENT
BEING COMPROMISED
WITH COWARD
OFFICIALS AND
NATIONAL SECURITIES
LIES....

CAUSED THESE
VINDICTIVE ACTIONS
OF EXTINCTION OF
LIFE....PASSING
ON SO HORRIBLY...

DAMN WHAT HAS
HAPPENED TO OUR
BELOVED COUNTRY...

LAND OF THE FREE...
HOME OF THE BRAVE...
NOW THE WHOLE
FUCKING PLANET
HAS BEEN PUT
IN IT'S GRAVE...

THERE IS NO
ONE TO HELP...
AND NO ONE
TO SAVE...

WE HAVE BEEN
TRADED IN...
NOT TO BE ....
REBORN AGAIN...
THIS IS DEFINITELY
A SIN....

JUST THAT
FAST YOUR
LIFE DOES A 360
TO THE END
OF IT....AS THE ATMOSPHERE
SETTLES DOWN
WITH A NEW TONE...

THERE WON'T BE
NO EVIDENCE
OF US...NOT
EVEN A BONE...

THE SUFFERINGS
OF US...ARE
BECAUSE WE
PUT OUR
TRUST IN
THE DECEIVERS...

WHO WE CHOSE
TO BE OUR
LEADERS


WRITTEN AND COPYRIGHT 2010

BY POETESS.SOUL

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